I want to share something inspiring that happened today during my leadership class. My professor shared and opened up about her past and the struggles that she’s been through. She provided advice and ways to cope with your past experiences. My professor mentioned how important it is to open up with people and that therapists understand people don’t want to share the worst thing going on in their life.
Almost everyone has something in their life that stresses them out. This could include: abusive childhood, toxic friends and family, not feeling loved by those around you, having no one to talk to, and feeling lonely. I think people sometimes disregard how others feel just because they have a smile on their face or they seem happy all the time. Some people don’t want to share what has gone or currently is going on in their life that has made them feel those certain ways I listed.
I think I’m ready to share part of my story and here it is.
The summer before my senior year of high school my dad went to jail for child molestation and second degree rape. This time in my life was awful. I can’t really say it any other way because that’s how it felt. My childhood was not great at all and to escape my home life I would constantly go over to friends houses. Whether it was when I was in Minnesota or Washington. Going back to school my senior year was difficult and I thought I was ready but I wasn’t. I was so worried people would judge me that I just forced myself to stop how I was feeling.
High school is a very hard time for people to speak out about there past. Mostly for me it’s because my court case was going on and is still going on with my father. I don’t know the outcome of what will happen and that scares me. To open up about how I feel a little bit, imagine putting your dad in jail. You’re not going to feel the best but at the same time in my position he is one of the worst people ever. To rape a child and that child be your daughter? It’s absolutely disgusting and inhuman.
Anyways that is a little opening up and I’m quite scared to do this but I think I’m ready. I don’t know how many will read this whole thing since it’s pretty long but if you do thank you so much for reading what I had to say. I want to end this with a quote my professor told us today, “how do I know what I think I say until I say what I think.”